As I fell asleep last night, I couldn’t help wondering what would happen next. Now that I finally got the message, is the cardinal’s job is done? Do they move on to the next person, or do they stick around for a while to make sure everything is okay? It didn’t take long to receive an answer, at six a.m. I was startled from my sleep. The bird was at my bedroom window, with a call that seemed even louder than usual. I gathered from his presence, that he had decided to stay for a while longer. Although why he chose six a.m. to let me know this, I could not imagine.
Unable to fall back to sleep, I laid in bed for a few minutes thinking about the amazing revelations from the previous day when I was suddenly startled once again by a phone call. It was my daughter who was clearly upset. My mind raced to the baby’s health but before I could even ask, she interrupted the thought. “Can I bring the baby over, I need to get John to the hospital.” I tried to calm her down by telling her I would be right there to help her with anything she needed. Then I asked what was wrong with her husband, John. In a frightened voice she blurted out, “He thinks he might be dying.”
Needless to say, I was there within five minutes. John did not look at all well. He had been extremely sick throughout the night and was still running a very high fever. I started to say something to Harmony, my daughter about using the word dying, especially to someone who has so recently witnessed the process, but they had both obviously been up all night and he did clearly need to be taken to the hospital emergency room.
After they left I sat quietly holding the the baby and wondering, had the cardinal actually come to warn me this morning? Exactly why he woke me up, I may never know for sure, but I am certainly thankful that he did. As it turned out, John was suffering from a severe sinus and upper respiratory infection. Gratefully, his condition was treatable and he did not need to be hospitalized.
I spent the rest of the day creating a design for the website. This was a welcome chore as designing the artwork is one of my favorite things to do. The entire site seemed to flow together so naturally, it barely felt like work at all. I began with the logo which had to include a moon. Not only because it was a very special symbol to me, but because the night before he died, a luminous full moon was the last beautiful sight that Jack and I shared together. For me, the full moon had always been a sign of hope, with the addition of the cardinal experience, somehow the symbol is now majestic.